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Gracious maskA one sided friendship
You speak when you need me--
Demand something of me,
And the calendar passes month by month in silence
When you do not.
I watched the mask of your graciousness
Slide in place like silk’
The ‘pity-poor-me’ masquerade
That fooled me once and still fools others.
Associates stolen from my inner circles
I know your face in the glossy magazines;
If only your insides
Were as beautiful as your pictures.
I’ve started to step away.
You’ve not noticed me leaving.
Lost girl.You keep trying to remind me
Of the naive girl I once was
In all the wrong ways;
Veiled words and hints in conversation,
Dappled like shadows in my present sunlight
Darkening my mood behind the smile.
Failing that, smut and outright lewdness
Though personal and private correspondence.
Do you think I’ve genuinely forgotten?
(even though you’ve forgotten me until now)
A chance reminded you of my name
--however you are looking for something
That you won’t find
‘Never be ashamed of anything you’ve done’
(or should that be any-ONE?)
--yet it creeps in unwanted
The dirty secret of yours that was once me,
I force myself to stand a little straighter.
The skin of old scars ripping just a little
I no longer mistake abuse for affection
Or manipulation for caring.
The girl is still there somewhere
I didn’t let you corrupt her completely--
But you need to learn to face the woman.
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